ohgod.

pleasebeokay, please be okay.
that's all i want, and i don't even know what's wrong. i hope so much it's not like before...
I know something is wrong. But it is no longer my place to know, to ask, and I can't help it, I need you to be okay. I'm so scared but I... I can't do anything. Even more so than ever before.
I don't want you to be less than happy.
I love you. Jake Robert Leo Boesten. I miss saying your name. Walking with you. Talking to you. Be okay, god, please.