listen to me.
i was not trying to die.
It was so long ago.
But it is still there. Accept it. But then don't keep bringing it up.
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- Toivoa ja Elämän
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My life mainly consists of seeing him and trying, against all odds, to make sure he is okay. It's still worth it...
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i know you were not trying to die
ReplyDeletebut the fact is that you could have
and that was the scariest thing of all
because you didn't want to but could have
sigh. i was going to be all, sylvia plath style, but then I realised, that would be cruel. i think. i suck at life.
ReplyDeletei never realise the impact of what i do on other people
nah, i actual couldn't have. it would have fucked with my liver, but i'd need to take like, 80. at least 60?
i mean what i took was pretty bad, but not THAT bad.
Not that I knew that. Although, I'd taken around that before, so yeah.
I just... i hate how it keeps getting brought up, specifically how.
it changes shit though. i feel like i should be able to tell people about it and have them accept that it is something that happened in my past, because damnit it did happen. and same with hurting myself. i still tell some people about it, like when i become good friends with someone, i find it necessary to mention it. because. well. it's still there. it has had and still does have an impact on my life. i was scared it wouldn't be accepted.
but it's okay.
i'm so sorry. really.
i know.
ReplyDeletei.love.you.
xx
People don't understand...that or self injury. People don't understand that kind of pain...
ReplyDeleteMaybe they just can't if they haven't felt that way.
be well,
tracy
Tracy - it is hard to understand, but sometimes i just want people to accept it. and not continue to remind me of it when it is in the past, drag me back to it.
ReplyDeletethanks for your comment.
(: